God I tired to be here. Everyone says that isn't good about me. I'm tired of having to explain to people who ask "why are you exactly?" "is it true what they say about you?" I am tired, god.
God, I never want to avenge those who hurt me. I just begged for you to open the door of their hearts, until they realized what they had done to me. 
I do not know what to do now. I am really tired of it all. I leave it to you god, because only you who can understand me completely.
for now I can not trust anyone, I felt there was no point to believe in the people around me.

    *You judge me with your eyes and say anything unkind about me, without knowing who and how I*